My broken heart occurred long ago, and for a long time it was beyond my ability to remember, what had happened to me.

It was beyond my ability, to remember why I felt this way.

Yes there were incidents, in this lifetime, that brought me into contact with the memory; that assisted me in touching the feelings.

But the source of my wandering, the initiation of this journey, the beginning of why I began my search for love, eluded me.

Like a beacon through time, the pulse of my heart felt broken, and that connection was a feeling I could not recover, no matter how I tried.

Living in Past Times

As a child, I told myself stories, and long after I got to be an adult, I realized that these stories, were a history of my lifetimes; of my lifetimes in incarnation.  They were a map of what had happened as I lived life out over a very long time, eons, thousands of years.

I have drawn maps of the history that I remember, maps of my travels.  My lifetimes began not on Earth but among the stars, and crossed the galaxy until I landed, here.

I had companions on this journey, and I met them, here.  At first, I went outside myself to find love.  My love companion journeyed with me for many, many incarnations, always in the same type of relationship dynamic, and you think that would have gotten boring.  But, I convinced myself in every lifetime that this was the love I had wanted, I had been searching for.

In some lifetimes I could barely remember that I had come from love, at all.

Evolution of the Twin Flame Dynamic

I called this love my twin flame.  He felt like this to me, because I had convinced myself that everything I needed, was represented by him.  What I know now is that we were simply two Souls incarnated, serving each other through an unhealthy relationship.

I finally woke up about the nature of my relationships when I allowed myself to know I was a valuable human being, deserving of receiving love.  This is when I met what I then called my twin flame.

And I found, that my true twin flame, was me.

When I chose to connect with my higher self, and believe that I was worthy of deserving love, ‘he’ came to me, like a golden angel hovering beside me.  The unconditional love I felt for myself, emanating forth, was unlike anything I had felt before.

What I came to see, is he was me.  How is this possible?

Our Souls incarnate into this realm from a state of wholeness, and in the simplest terms, how this is worked, is that Souls leave half of themselves behind to do so.  That half is the other side of the duality that we incarnate, into. So, if we are male, our twin flame has our female energy.  If we are a being of light, our twin flame has our shadow self.  And so on.

We were one and the same energy, emanating from Soul, divided into two, and then made incarnate; higher self or guardian angel, and human self, together, one whole creation of Soul.

Where is My Home?

In this lifetime, key events conspired to ignite my passion for stories about the stars and who might live among them.

I had always felt, even in childhood, that I was a visitor here, and that somewhere else was my home.  I remember as a child, a vision of a old, old man, and I, sitting above the atmosphere of the Earth. I remember him pointing to areas of the planet, telling me about the Earth and it’s people, about the activity here, and making observations, teaching me.

Then, the crushing realization when I came to a certain age, that the place that I had remembered the most fondly, had been destroyed, long ago.  I had always thought I would return there after this lifetime, and the loss of this home put me adrift.

Where Did I Truly Belong?

As I grew more into my spirituality, I realized that ultimately my home was with my Soul, and that I could ask my higher self and Soul for breaks, to return to the feeling of home, during this lifetime.  And there were times when I asked to do so, when life was challenging.

The feeling of the stars had this feel for me – of Soul, of home.  And thus, I concentrated my activities into spending time on, and sharing stories of, the stars, as my hobby.

In my memories, I traced my personal stories back to my earliest incarnation in the galaxies.  And all I could see about where I had come from, was that I came from Light – my people were beings of light.  I knew that my ‘mother’ and ‘father’ came from there.

I had no idea about where that place was or how to get there.

Breaking My Heart: Remembering the Blue Girl 

This fall, I remembered the lifetime that started it all; that started all my journeys across time that I had remembered since I was a child.  I call this lifetime, the Blue Girl.

She was ripped from her people and her life partner, from a higher dimensional plane and existence, and was kidnapped, assaulted, raped, tortured, drugged and subjected to mind control experiments and physical imprinting.  This lifetime was eons ago, and yet it was real, up front, up close and personal.  My body ached where she ached.  I hurt where she hurt.  I felt her confusion.  I felt her despair.

Links: See The Blue Girl & Being Willing to Love, Again: An Andromedan Past Lifetime

I celebrated her victory over her captors, when she found a way to take herself out of the situation by dying and leaving her body.

Many friends and acquaintances showed up in my life as I processed the memories of the Blue Girl.  The support system that came forth is something I am deeply grateful for.

Links: See The Blue Girl From Andromeda – Quantum Physics, Spirituality and Starships (+ Video)

It is as if everything in this lifetime, was set up to help me remember, and then recover, the Blue Girl’s life experience.  I know the people involved, now, in this lifetime.  Life is full of surprises, and coincidences.  Sometimes I feel that everything has been set up just for me to have the exquisite experience of living this lifetime in all of it’s divine perfection.

And for us all, I believe that this is true.

I believe that the universe responds to our deepest needs and our deepest desires, even when we cannot voice them; even when we do not know that that is what they are.

Holding On to the Pain – the Experience of Stockholm Syndrome

Recently, I went through an exercise to give back all that I had taken on from this lifetime, back to those who had captured the Blue Girl, and who had inflicted her pain and trauma.  She had been in a kind of Stockholm Syndrome, and held all of the energies of the trauma as if she was responsible, herself, for what had happened to her, and as if she had to protect those who had caused the trauma.

This trauma had created great shame, a shame that has followed me my entire lifetime, since the blue girl has incarnated as me, now.  At times, this shame has been incapacitating, paralyzing, slowing my decisions, causing me to harshly judge myself, also.

It was so freeing, to finally let go of what was not mine.  I stood with the Blue Girl, in the space of a vision, in a circle of light, and poured out all I had taken on, until she was done, and until I was done.

Recovering Our Love

When it was all done, I watched as she and her partner, her love, stood in front of me in a vision and said goodbye.  I have worked with her partner as my spirit guide since 2011, not knowing at that time, that we were beginning a years long project of recovering his love – an incarnation of me – the Blue Girl.

The sweetness of the moment was tangible, and poignant for me.  I knew that I was beginning a new stage of my life.

The stage of my life where I am finally, free.

I am free of the past.  I am free of the cause of my sorrows.  My Blue Girl reunited with her love, and returned home, to the higher dimensions.

And I am free, here on Earth, with my golden angel guide – my Higher Self and I, one unit of the divinity of our Soul, having a human experience.

Links: See Have Courage, Take Heart

Letting Go of the Pain of Heartbreak

Last night, I lay down on the couch watching a movie, and I was overwhelmed with the pain over my heart.  Now I had just seen the doctor, and I knew that this was not a physical condition.

As I lay there, I could feel my big brother Archangel Michael sit with me in his brotherly blue, and he said to me, “you are healing from a broken heart”.

It has actually been days now, but last night was the most intense of them.  And as I watched the movie, I cried and let my body feel the feelings.

Have Courage, Take Heart

The body has it’s own timing, the body has it’s own perception.  And my body needed to be felt and my heart needed to be poured out, listened to, and reassured.  I needed to treat myself with love.

In the morning, I woke with a new sense of purpose, of mission.  I awoke and knew what was on the docket for the day, what was on the agenda.

The pain in my heart is faded; underneath it all a spark of courage is glowing. While it may take a little more time to move through this fully, the feeling that something new is beginning in me is flowing strongly.

The Star Soul: Feeling at Home, Here on Earth, Being Human

I finally feel at home. My Soul is seated and at home, pulsing like a star in the heart of my human form.

My human body is my home, here on Earth, now.  I live here connected with my Soul in my divine and human sovereignty, experiencing love generated from within. My heart feels the love of the sparkling star shining within that is my Soul. I feel the loving presence of the rest of me – my Higher Self and golden angel.

Life is a new and a grand adventure.

I have recovered my love, and my love is me.  My love comes with a feeling of freedom, and of joy.  And of the wonder of feeling that I am beginning, again.

I am beginning a new life for me.  Step, by step.  Moment, by moment.

And, I am filled with the feeling that I am making a fresh start, from the wholeness within, that is my love.

Love, Solaris

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Unknown Ship (UFO) Saves the Day – A Story of the Fireball in British Columbia

This is a discussion of news and commentary about a fireball near Nelson, British Columbia the night of September 4, 2017.

The fireball appeared to have an explosion in several flashes, as the flashes lit the sky locally to day time levels of light, even though it was nighttime, in flashing that was seen for hundreds of miles, across various U.S. states, and caused the ground to rumble for 30 seconds, according to some Twitter users.

Links to Videos of the Event

Most of the videos of the event were taken by motion activated security cameras and car dash cameras.  A good set of short videos on this event can be found at this Twitter Moments link.  This video on Twitter has an excellent view of the unknown craft or set of lights flying away from the fireball.  You can check reports and videos of the meteor here on Truth Seeker’s YouTube channel.  In addition, the American Meteor Society has detailed reporting and personal sightings on the fireball here.

The Turning Ship 

When I look at these videos, what I see is a brightly lit object coming through the atmosphere that explodes – and a fairly large ship pulling away and upward in the opposite direction.

Afterwards, another ship image (it could be the same one) and several spheres are seen flying through the area and the energetic debris field.

Unknown Ship Saves the Day

Let’s create a story about this event.  For me, here is how the story goes based on what I see in the videos from the above links.

1. An unknown object that may be hostile comes through the atmosphere.
2. The object flashes in an apparent set of three explosions.
3. An unknown vehicle flies out of the target area, up and away from the explosion of the unknown object.
4. The unknown vehicle then completely disappears, either at such a high speed that cannot visually pick up it’s movement, or by using some kind of cloaking technology.
5. The unknown vehicle rapidly circles (unseen) and returns to check the site, sits to the side and above the explosive scatter field for a few fractions of a second (enough to be caught on video), and then takes off at high velocity, in a straight line to the right from our vantage point, and perfectly parallel to the ground.
6. Multiple spheres are flying through the surrounding area after the flashes occur from the explosions (three flashes) of the unknown object.
7. The spheres make geometric patterns as they fly through the debris field.
8. The debris field is more than physical – it is energetic.
9. The spheres de-toxify the surrounding areas so that any radiation released by the exploded object does not contaminate the area.
10. The spheres release energies that appear as colored pastels in the video, and release codes that appear as intricate patterns in the video.
11. These codes and energies released by the spheres transmute any toxicity in the atmosphere and/or the environment from the exploded object.

Solaris Modalis and Alex Clark Video Discussion: Turning Ship and Fireball – Meteor in British Columbia

As you check out this interesting story, you are invited to the big fun we had making this video.  What you will see is how we use our intuition to build a story around our experience of viewing video of the fireball in British Columbia on September 4, 2017.

We use our intuitive skills to do our assessment of the news and to make commentary.  These include galactic experiences and past life memories, our clairvoyance and ability to read energies, our ability to look within for guidance, and so much more.

Our empowered humanity – it is time we own it!!

And it is big fun to do so….

This video has been a big unleashing of the inner child in me.  And she is the wild and free dreamer, and she is the key to ascension also – lucky me!

I hope you enjoy meeting us in this video!!

Based on this video uploaded by @RafaelPern on Twitter, and based on observations of the patterns of the lights of the craft as it moves up and away from the explosion, here is what I see happening, and how the ship moves away from the object.

The craft is initially pointed away from the viewer, so the rear four lights are all that are seen.  Then the craft starts to flip to our right.  As it does so, the set of four lights becomes angled, so that they appear closer together.

The craft continues executing a turn and flip at the same time, so that the four lights cannot be seen, just two lights as we are now viewing the craft from the side.  A shadow of triangle appears in the front of the lights of the craft.

The craft now is completely angled and parallel to the ground – the lights appear as just two because the craft is directly across from the viewer, the triangle shape of the rest of the craft is in front of the lights.

The craft then banks to the left, as it’s right side pulls up at the same time – it is executing a curving turn to the left.  As it does so, the light on the right immediately completely disappears, then the light on the left fades to black.  It appears the craft has 1) flown into thick smoke that makes a type of curtain, 2) flown into a dimensional envelope that cannot be seen with the eyes, 3) has activated a cloaking device, 4) has increased speed so fast that the craft seems to have disappeared out of sight almost instantly.

Based on the movement of the lights, and the shadows made by the ship as it moves, turns and accelerates, here is what I believe this ship looks like.  It appears to be pyramidal, with four lights, or power and/or propulsion sources, at it’s rear.  When the craft is completely on it’s side, it appears to only have two lights to the viewer:

And now, putting it all together – I’ve added to the story in the image below, hypothesizing what may have occurred – the UFO flies in, fires upon the unknown object, travels in a sideways arc around the explosion, then turns and flips, taking off into a dimensional envelope.

The pyramid ship or UFO thus:

• Has interdimensional capability
• Has high speed maneuverability
• Has a rounded cone or pyramid-shaped top
• Has a flattened base
• Has four lights or power and/or propulsion sources
• These lights or power and/or propulsion sources flare brightly when stressed

I hope that you have enjoyed this interesting story of the turning ship and fireball.

Deep gratitude to Alex for her insightful comments and for bringing this event to my attention.

If you have interesting personal videos or photos you’d like to share, or would like me to take a look at, please send them to me at SolarisModalis.  I’d love to engage with you also.

Blessings to you – may your path rise up to meet you, with ease and grace, with joy and laughter.

Love, Solaris

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Your Secret Experience

Who are we, really?  We are here, now, as human beings.  And, we are so much more than we appear. Your secret experiences have formed you, have been your inspiration, have been the cause of your healing; they underlay your search for love.

Ultimately, in our darkness, and in our light, we are love made manifest.

I have the honor of meeting and working with wondrous clients, and friends.  I get to hear the stories and the experiences that they can tell to very few.

Some have kept their experiences quiet for years, some for decades.  It is an honor and a joy for me to experience these stories, together with them.  This poem reflects how I express my light, and my love.

Tell me your story –

I will listen with love,

we’ll walk this path, together,

with angels from above.

It is an honor

to witness your truth.

You know that

I have been there, too.

I have seen the darkness,

I have seen the light.

I have witnessed as the monsters

Try to scare me to a fright.

I am a warrior

of love, and of light.

I walk with my angels

through love we walk through dark and light.

We come together for a moment

held in love and light

honoring experience

honoring Soul’s light.

Love, Solaris

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