My broken heart occurred long ago, and for a long time it was beyond my ability to remember, what had happened to me.

It was beyond my ability, to remember why I felt this way.

Yes there were incidents, in this lifetime, that brought me into contact with the memory; that assisted me in touching the feelings.

But the source of my wandering, the initiation of this journey, the beginning of why I began my search for love, eluded me.

Like a beacon through time, the pulse of my heart felt broken, and that connection was a feeling I could not recover, no matter how I tried.

Living in Past Times

As a child, I told myself stories, and long after I got to be an adult, I realized that these stories, were a history of my lifetimes; of my lifetimes in incarnation.  They were a map of what had happened as I lived life out over a very long time, eons, thousands of years.

I have drawn maps of the history that I remember, maps of my travels.  My lifetimes began not on Earth but among the stars, and crossed the galaxy until I landed, here.

I had companions on this journey, and I met them, here.  At first, I went outside myself to find love.  My love companion journeyed with me for many, many incarnations, always in the same type of relationship dynamic, and you think that would have gotten boring.  But, I convinced myself in every lifetime that this was the love I had wanted, I had been searching for.

In some lifetimes I could barely remember that I had come from love, at all.

Evolution of the Twin Flame Dynamic

I called this love my twin flame.  He felt like this to me, because I had convinced myself that everything I needed, was represented by him.  What I know now is that we were simply two Souls incarnated, serving each other through an unhealthy relationship.

I finally woke up about the nature of my relationships when I allowed myself to know I was a valuable human being, deserving of receiving love.  This is when I met what I then called my twin flame.

And I found, that my true twin flame, was me.

When I chose to connect with my higher self, and believe that I was worthy of deserving love, ‘he’ came to me, like a golden angel hovering beside me.  The unconditional love I felt for myself, emanating forth, was unlike anything I had felt before.

What I came to see, is he was me.  How is this possible?

Our Souls incarnate into this realm from a state of wholeness, and in the simplest terms, how this is worked, is that Souls leave half of themselves behind to do so.  That half is the other side of the duality that we incarnate, into. So, if we are male, our twin flame has our female energy.  If we are a being of light, our twin flame has our shadow self.  And so on.

We were one and the same energy, emanating from Soul, divided into two, and then made incarnate; higher self or guardian angel, and human self, together, one whole creation of Soul.

Where is My Home?

In this lifetime, key events conspired to ignite my passion for stories about the stars and who might live among them.

I had always felt, even in childhood, that I was a visitor here, and that somewhere else was my home.  I remember as a child, a vision of a old, old man, and I, sitting above the atmosphere of the Earth. I remember him pointing to areas of the planet, telling me about the Earth and it’s people, about the activity here, and making observations, teaching me.

Then, the crushing realization when I came to a certain age, that the place that I had remembered the most fondly, had been destroyed, long ago.  I had always thought I would return there after this lifetime, and the loss of this home put me adrift.

Where Did I Truly Belong?

As I grew more into my spirituality, I realized that ultimately my home was with my Soul, and that I could ask my higher self and Soul for breaks, to return to the feeling of home, during this lifetime.  And there were times when I asked to do so, when life was challenging.

The feeling of the stars had this feel for me – of Soul, of home.  And thus, I concentrated my activities into spending time on, and sharing stories of, the stars, as my hobby.

In my memories, I traced my personal stories back to my earliest incarnation in the galaxies.  And all I could see about where I had come from, was that I came from Light – my people were beings of light.  I knew that my ‘mother’ and ‘father’ came from there.

I had no idea about where that place was or how to get there.

Breaking My Heart: Remembering the Blue Girl 

This fall, I remembered the lifetime that started it all; that started all my journeys across time that I had remembered since I was a child.  I call this lifetime, the Blue Girl.

She was ripped from her people and her life partner, from a higher dimensional plane and existence, and was kidnapped, assaulted, raped, tortured, drugged and subjected to mind control experiments and physical imprinting.  This lifetime was eons ago, and yet it was real, up front, up close and personal.  My body ached where she ached.  I hurt where she hurt.  I felt her confusion.  I felt her despair.

Links: See The Blue Girl & Being Willing to Love, Again: An Andromedan Past Lifetime

I celebrated her victory over her captors, when she found a way to take herself out of the situation by dying and leaving her body.

Many friends and acquaintances showed up in my life as I processed the memories of the Blue Girl.  The support system that came forth is something I am deeply grateful for.

Links: See The Blue Girl From Andromeda – Quantum Physics, Spirituality and Starships (+ Video)

It is as if everything in this lifetime, was set up to help me remember, and then recover, the Blue Girl’s life experience.  I know the people involved, now, in this lifetime.  Life is full of surprises, and coincidences.  Sometimes I feel that everything has been set up just for me to have the exquisite experience of living this lifetime in all of it’s divine perfection.

And for us all, I believe that this is true.

I believe that the universe responds to our deepest needs and our deepest desires, even when we cannot voice them; even when we do not know that that is what they are.

Holding On to the Pain – the Experience of Stockholm Syndrome

Recently, I went through an exercise to give back all that I had taken on from this lifetime, back to those who had captured the Blue Girl, and who had inflicted her pain and trauma.  She had been in a kind of Stockholm Syndrome, and held all of the energies of the trauma as if she was responsible, herself, for what had happened to her, and as if she had to protect those who had caused the trauma.

This trauma had created great shame, a shame that has followed me my entire lifetime, since the blue girl has incarnated as me, now.  At times, this shame has been incapacitating, paralyzing, slowing my decisions, causing me to harshly judge myself, also.

It was so freeing, to finally let go of what was not mine.  I stood with the Blue Girl, in the space of a vision, in a circle of light, and poured out all I had taken on, until she was done, and until I was done.

Recovering Our Love

When it was all done, I watched as she and her partner, her love, stood in front of me in a vision and said goodbye.  I have worked with her partner as my spirit guide since 2011, not knowing at that time, that we were beginning a years long project of recovering his love – an incarnation of me – the Blue Girl.

The sweetness of the moment was tangible, and poignant for me.  I knew that I was beginning a new stage of my life.

The stage of my life where I am finally, free.

I am free of the past.  I am free of the cause of my sorrows.  My Blue Girl reunited with her love, and returned home, to the higher dimensions.

And I am free, here on Earth, with my golden angel guide – my Higher Self and I, one unit of the divinity of our Soul, having a human experience.

Links: See Have Courage, Take Heart

Letting Go of the Pain of Heartbreak

Last night, I lay down on the couch watching a movie, and I was overwhelmed with the pain over my heart.  Now I had just seen the doctor, and I knew that this was not a physical condition.

As I lay there, I could feel my big brother Archangel Michael sit with me in his brotherly blue, and he said to me, “you are healing from a broken heart”.

It has actually been days now, but last night was the most intense of them.  And as I watched the movie, I cried and let my body feel the feelings.

Have Courage, Take Heart

The body has it’s own timing, the body has it’s own perception.  And my body needed to be felt and my heart needed to be poured out, listened to, and reassured.  I needed to treat myself with love.

In the morning, I woke with a new sense of purpose, of mission.  I awoke and knew what was on the docket for the day, what was on the agenda.

The pain in my heart is faded; underneath it all a spark of courage is glowing. While it may take a little more time to move through this fully, the feeling that something new is beginning in me is flowing strongly.

The Star Soul: Feeling at Home, Here on Earth, Being Human

I finally feel at home. My Soul is seated and at home, pulsing like a star in the heart of my human form.

My human body is my home, here on Earth, now.  I live here connected with my Soul in my divine and human sovereignty, experiencing love generated from within. My heart feels the love of the sparkling star shining within that is my Soul. I feel the loving presence of the rest of me – my Higher Self and golden angel.

Life is a new and a grand adventure.

I have recovered my love, and my love is me.  My love comes with a feeling of freedom, and of joy.  And of the wonder of feeling that I am beginning, again.

I am beginning a new life for me.  Step, by step.  Moment, by moment.

And, I am filled with the feeling that I am making a fresh start, from the wholeness within, that is my love.

Love, Solaris

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My friend Alex Clark and I discuss the blue girl and her story.  We talk about who the blue girl was, her culture, how she flew the starship with her co-captains, and how the ship operated.

We also get into a discussion of shamanic practices, spirituality of the Soul, quantum physics discussion of healing from zero point, what happens to the spirit and the body when we die, and so much more.

Play by Play: The Blue Girl Video Content

Here is the story of the blue girl and an overview of the content we discussed in this video.  Numbers indicate the minutes:seconds that is the location of this commentary in the video.

0:01 Talking about an extraterrestrial past life.

• • This video is about the article I wrote on the blog at The Blue Girl, and Being Willing to Love,Again.
  • Alex: I hold the space for Solaris to talk about her truth.
  • Solaris: What holding the space means and how it works.

3:37 Feeling you are a starseed.

• • Feeling connection with the stars.

4:25 Solaris: On healing a past lifetime.

• • In this past life I had flown a starship.
  • It had crashed and the Captain was captured.
  • Using shamanic techniques at zero point to access interdimensionally.
  • Having a vision of the blue girl.
  • How I see past lifetimes.
  • Creating the image of the blue girl.
  • The shocking-ness of remembering being one of the “blue people”.

7:48 Discussing who the blue girl was.

• • From the Andromeda galaxy.
  • A higher dimensional culture, more “spiritual”.
  • They were telepathic only – they did not speak.
  • Flying the starship – with three co-captains.
  • What the flying station was like.
  • The telepathic links with the other captains and the ship.
  • Being one with the ship and it’s functions.
  • Directing the ship telepathically.
  • They were not linked physically and had no tech in their bodies.
  • They were able to link through their physical capabilities.
  • Solaris – I believe that humans are capable of this.
  • Flying the ship with their mind.
  • The ship is conscious – sentient and in service with the people.

11:17 What the culture of her blue people was like.

• • They were telepathic.
  • But they had “privacy” as individuals.
  • The people had telepathic links with layers of groups of their culture.
  • This was a culture that lived on starships.
  • Everything, everyone was considered equal.
  • The technology was considered equal with them and was conscious.

13:00  Influences of the blue girl on my human lifetime.

• • My love for looking at the stars.
  • My dreams of flying around the stars.
  • Connecting with the blue stars – my favorites!

15:40  Solaris: How the memories of this lifetime came up for me.

• • Feelings of responsibility.
  • Feelings of keeping information secret (the Captain was captured by the attackers).
  • The healing techniques I use are shamanic in nature.
  • Plus, I am working in a zero point energy field.

17:40  What happened in the past lifetime.

• • The starship crashed without hitting anything.
  • It was hit by a huge beam of light.
  • The attackers sent in a beam of light that captured the Captain.
  • The beam of light caused all the people and the ship to loose consciousness.
  • The attackers had very advanced technology and were able to download the information they wanted from her brain.
  • They also wanted to get in to her telepathic link.
  • All of this was very traumatic for her to experience.

19:30  What happens when the body dies.

• • How the spirit leaves the body.
  • The body dies, but the spirit still has awareness before a full death.
  • In those moments, the body and spirit is still having emotions and thoughts.
  • The spirit still enlivens the non-physical aspects of the body (the thoughts, the emotions) until it fully departs.
  • What we can take with us, when our spirit leaves the body, is pure love.
  • Any fear, anger that have not been transmuted, remain in the astral field.  They can be transmuted best from within physical form, while in a living body, in another lifetime, or taken on by another Soul to transmute in that Soul’s incarnation, where it chooses to do so.
  • This especially happens when the spirit leaves the body, when the body dies in trauma.
  • This is why traumatic deaths during war, violence, and abuse are so challenging – they add to the astral layers of Earth’s energy fields, and to the astral residue of the race of beings of that time and place, also.

21:50  Being born into the body – how the body’s energy is configured at incarnation.

• • When we incarnate, our Soul chooses the components of this lifetime.
  • This may include memories, and energetic residue, of key past lifetimes that will influence the current lifetime.
  • Sometimes these are included for healing, so that the Soul heals itself through our incarnations.
  • Actually, we heal ourselves (with help from our friends, from inner guidance, from our spiritual guides).
  • We are the Soul, incarnate.
  • How my life has components of the blue girl’s life.
  • Love of the stars, dreams of flying among the stars.
  • Feelings of guilt, secrets, hiding.
  • We address these emotions when we are alive, sometimes in the current lifetime, sometimes in another one.

23:10  Alex discusses innate body energy wounding from a biological perspective.

• • Amazing how much information the body can store on your behalf.
  • Alex’s past life experiences related to neck pain.
  • How she healed from neck pain.
  • Physical reverberations of traumatic events in past lives.
  • We believe there soul goes on in perfection.
  • But in other lifetimes, there is an opportunity to address the energetic residue, and the thoughts and emotions, of what had occurred.

24:45  Solaris discusses energetic detritus in the human energy field

• • Seeing the energy grids of the body as golden.
  • I work with the energy grids and clearing the energetic detritus from the energy grids of a person.

26:00  Discussing what the blue girl was like.

• • She was fairy like, lithe, feminine.
  • Alex describes her as a pixie.
  • Solaris: Ha ha! As I was writing this article a link to Dark Pixie Astrology opened up on my browser.
  • Discussing why I was not interested in topics that would have touched the life of the blue girl until now.

28:00  Alex discusses why these feelings feel so present now.

• • Dimensional differences,
  • Time is not linear.
  • All time actually happens at the same time – in the Now moment.

29:40 The blue girl is a part of my Soul.

• • Alex notes how she shows up in my life – wearing blue, and so on.
  • The blue girl’s feelings of guilt over being captured.

30:00 Alex talks about her perception of the blue girl’s race and their capabilities.

• • This was a higher dimensional race in a unity consciousness.
  • This race had no consciousness about being able to be attacked.
  • There was a ‘one strike’ capability by the attackers.
  • Something/someone, was able to find that ‘back door’, like a lightening strike.
  • Then, all the systems on the ship were fried.
  • For the blue girl to feel guilty over how the entire race was set up; this was not her fault.
  • We have that on planet Earth now – race guilt, guilt about what a culture did to others.
  • The individual isn’t responsible for the fact that her race and their technology did not have high enough security or capabilities to prevent being attacked.
  • You feel awful, you go through the healing process, and then you feel much better, lighter, and released from the trauma.

34:33. How the blue girl has benefitted me in this lifetime.

• • Studying quantum physics, developing quantum tool sets.
  • Having an understanding of how energy works through the memories.
  • Learning to set energy parameters in this lifetime; this is an evolution from the blue girl’s lifetime.

35:45  Energy protection.

• • The idea of an energy shield for your field.
  • Evolving this to setting the parameters for our energy field.
  • Why this works: I am the representative for my Soul in this body.
  • Interacting at a mastery level with the Soul.
  • Choosing our experience, while knowing divinity creates outcomes in our highest good.

37:00 Discussion of Soul contract.

• • Soul contracts are created moment to moment from my perspective.
  • Alex and I will be talking more about these ideas in new videos!

37:54  Higher dimensional beings cannot necessarily see into the lower dimensions

• • The omnipresence of God.
  • Higher dimensional beings are incarnated too.
  • Lower dimensions are not necessarily in their awareness.

38:47 Alex talks about biology of dimensions from a body perspective.

• • How our view is dependent on our perspective.

39:44  What boots on the ground – starseeds – are doing here.

• • You need boots on the ground to perceive the lower dimensions.
  • Solaris talks about doing energy work with the land, and clearing dark – dense energies.
  • Describing what starseeds are doing – reporting back about this dimension.

42:00  Doing energy work.

• • Checking in to see if there is permission.
  • Doing energy work from lightbody.
  • The parameters of this plane are sovereignty and free will choice.
  • Commanding will from a human perspective will have consequences.
  • Checking in with your inner divinity – your pure connection at the level of the frequency that you are choosing such as I Am Presence, Source consciousness, and so on.

45:31  The blue people – who they were.

• • From the Andromeda galaxy.
  • An Arcturian race that had incarnated as blue people at some point in history.
  • Not all blue people are necessarily Arcturians.
  • My sense is that the Arcturians have incarnated as many different races, with other types of bodies, over eons.
  • Solaris: When I interact with Arcturians, on lightships, they appear as an energy cloud.
  • Having an open mind to receive information and to hear others’ truths.

48:00  It still bothers me that I don’t know how the ship was crashed!

• • Alex:  The pertinent details were given during the healing work.
  • Alex talks about how the brain wants more data, and why the information may not be available at this time.
  • Solaris: These are the blue girl’s feelings: How did this happen? Feeling at fault because she was the Captain.
  • The concept of responsibility is a human perspective. It was not part of their culture.
  • Bringing the human perspective to her experience.
  • She received the signals that the ship received, and she did not perceive the attack ahead of time.
  • Healing past lives and extraterrestrial past lives:  We bring our human feelings and perspective, and we heal this.  As we are doing this, the emotions and thoughts pass through our field and body, and the emotions that she left after she died, those transmute and pass through the energy field and body applying that love to the self.
  • This elevates human awareness, each one of us doing healing, applying love and awareness, it benefits the collective.
  • Like the 100th monkey effect.
  • Having a period of integration after doing healing work.
  • Alex:  Treating the body, heart and soul gently.  Rocking the baby and inner child.  Taking the time for healing. How unconditionally loved we are in this universe, and to offer this to ourselves. (Alex, you rock this!!)

53:30 Meeting the blue girl’s male partner.

• • First met him in at an energy portal in New Mexico, at the church at Chemoya.
  • He is also a blue person, with a gold and blue/purple Egyptian-type headdress, and now is one of my spirit guides.
  • Doing my first energy work with him; learning from him how to do work with healing light.
  • When I saw that this woman was blue, I had the realization that they had been partners in her lifetime as the Captain.
  • Now I have met both of them; it is an amazing and beautiful experience to do so.  My heart is filled with love, feeling their love for each other, and for me, also.

Thanks for watching, and thank you for being here with me today.

Love, Solaris

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